Sunday, October 31, 2010

Happy Halloween

Just saw the movie, Waiting for Superman, that I mentioned in a previous post. I went to see it last night and it was pretty insightful. I recommend everyone to see it in theaters if it's showing because you can also go to their website: http://waitingforsuperman.com/action. There you can pledge to see the movie and get a $5 code for another website donorschoose.org that you can donate to a classroom in need.

I would say there were two main points from the documentary. 1.) Data has proven that the most important factor in a child's education is not their school, not their parents, but their teacher. Because tenure is so easy to get these days for teachers (you basically have to survive 3 years or so), there are too many bad teachers that can't get fired which create failing schools. This is mainly blamed on the teacher unions, and the documentary kind of demonizes the unions, but I think they probably need some demonizing. Michelle Rhee, the chancellor of schools in D.C., came up with an alternate idea instead of tenure to pay teachers based on effectiveness up to like $150,000 a year. But the union backfired and the proposition never went to a vote. 2.) This wasn't as explicitly stated in the film, but the other major problem that is related to the previous one is the lack of public awareness of the problem in education and the obvious solution. If more people stood up and took action to demand more effective teachers and a system that would reward good teachers and got rid of bad ones, then the unions may not have as much power to stop the change even though they are the number one source of money for political campaigns in the country.

The movie encouraged me that even though I'm not enjoying my life that much right now, I'm a teacher who cares. And I'm glad my students are in my hands as opposed to someone else's.

Friday, October 29, 2010

The Fall Fest

It was really hard coming back to work this week after the break. There are still days I wish I had either gone to med school or just taken a year off this year. I feel like I deserved a year off too with how hard I worked through high school and college. I even reminisce of the Waffle House grill cook days, but then I remember the pay check. It's just with most other jobs, you get off work and you live your life. I'm having a hard time living my life with my wife even though school is out at 2:05 here. I don't usually leave before 6 because there's grading, calling parents, organizing papers, meetings upon meetings (most not worth the time), and I usually don't get to do much planning  for the next day. I can't get any work done during my planning period, and I usually have some kind of meeting during 2 of 5 planning periods in a week. My goal at the beginning of the break was to have my next unit vision and plan and at least the next week's lessons planned out because when I get home around 7 and eat dinner, I want to go to bed. It is miserable to stay up past 9pm trying to plan your lesson for the next day when you wake up at 5am. I got the unit plan, but I enjoyed my break too much to get the all the lessons done. We'll try again this weekend. Then maybe I can have a better schedule during the week and maybe fit in a workout routine.

I do think I'm being pretty successful in my one biology class. I think most of the kids in there have the "I want" and the "I can" investment in my class. And I made a pretty fun lesson for mitosis yesterday where we all stood in a circle for the cell. Then two people got in the center to be chromosomes. Next, we replicated the chromosomes and added two other people in the center. Then we went through the phases of mitosis with a couple people on either end of the cell acting as centrioles throwing out their yarn "spindle fibers" to the chromosomes and pulling them to one end. And finally we split the cell in two with two chromosomes each. A lot of my biology kids go to a fellow TFA geometry teach after my class, and they told him that they really liked the class and had fun. And I think they learned the process pretty well too. We'll see if they did soon. My science coach was observing during that activity, which was good too. However, my Assistant Principal was evaluating me earlier during that period and we were just taking some notes, so I don't think she was too impressed. I think she hates guided notes from powerpoint. I've been doing that because I got some great resources with a lot of powerpoints and guided notes for the powerpoints. They really speed up getting the huge amount of information out that we have to cover, and my students would have to copy the whole slide if they didn't have guided notes and it takes forever for them to write. She told me that the guided notes are like a book to them and that they're just copying down the words and not internalizing it. Which I guess that may be valid, and if it was the only thing I did with them then I would agree with her. She recommended to me on several occasions to have them outline the chapter in their book before ever discussing the topic with them. I'm not sure if I have time to waste a whole class period on them making an outline from their book. But I'm starting to think she's going to see me as someone who isn't open to criticism or advice if I don't try it. I told her I would next week and see how it goes.

Let's just say for my other five physics sections that it's really difficult to teach these 9th graders physics. Especially since I'm not a very knowledgeable physics teacher. I'm teaching them waves right now with Slinkys and springs, but not many of these kids have that "I want" or "I can". There are a few kids that I think are getting a little more serious about their grade with report cards coming out on Monday. I definitely have many less failing students. I think I might have about 30-40 failing out of the 150 instead of like 70-80.

It was clearly evident how little experience and under-prepared the staff is at my school when we had our Fall Fest celebration for our freshmen. I feel kind of bad myself because I was part of the team that came up with this idea, but I was assigned to take care of kickball. I wasn't the mastermind. We had teachers on specific jobs, but it definitely wasn't thought out well enough. We planned to have it during the last bock of the day on the football field. I had my kickball and things for bases. I was ready to go. I let my students head to the football field because it would have been futile to try to keep them together with me, so I followed behind. My class was the first to show up at the field so I had them sit in the bleachers to wait for the others. There was nothing set up yet. We were planning to have an egg toss, corn hole, cake walk, kickball, football, and a dunk tank. There was no dunk tank, no eggs, no cakes. We had corn hole, a football, and of course the kickball. My class and I were sitting outside for about 10 minutes until another class came. But we still didn't start for a while. Kids were crawling up the announcing booth and jumping off. It was about to be a disaster, but we started playing football and I started the kickball game, and everything kind of got under way except the cake walk, corn hole, egg toss, or dunk tank.

Ah, it's finally the weekend.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Midtown

Disclaimer: this isn't really about my teaching experience. I said I would talk about the church I've been meeting with and being a part of. Mrs. K and I have been going to this place called Midtown Fellowship on 12th Avenue. We were told about it by a friend of a friend, and it's really close to our place. We felt like we really started connecting with people there and God was really speaking to me through the pastor. The first like 4 weeks we were there the new pastor talked a lot about being in transition, and dealing with new changes and sacrifices. We were planning on trying other places, but we liked it there so much we didn't bother.

We have had lunch with some cool people and young married couples our age including a couple really great folks, Joe and Tiff, that just got married and moved here earlier this summer. Tiff is a resident at Vanderbilt med school, and Joe is going to school for airplane mechanics. So they're very fun to be around and have turned out to be great friends. All four of us decided we really wanted to join one of Midtown's small groups, so we added into a group of three other younger married couples and we have loved being a part of that. One of the things I really like about Midtown is that they understand that real fellowship, accountability, and an intentional community like the Acts church is best done in a small group dynamic. So Midtown's plan is to grow by getting smaller. They are a plant church which means that their goal is to reach the larger community of Nashville by planting other congregations of Midtown around the city instead of having one huge church. The small groups are another part of the plan to allow real intentional church to happen with people really sharing their lives together and serving one another. So far we've dedicated each night to one couple sharing their life stories so we can have a better idea of where people are coming from and know more about each other. But eventually, the plan is to study the word or some other book together while intentionally building our community.

I've been learning a lot about Midtown's philosophy and plans by going to their membership class the past 3 Saturdays. Mrs. K and I want to become members of the church, so they have this class that talked about the gospel, community, and service. And then we had dinner with a special long-standing member of the church (or elder) which for us happened to be the founder of the church, who is really cool. We don't get to see him that much since he's at the original location. Our congregation at 12 South is the first plant church and just started last year some time.

We're really excited to be a part of this church, and we're looking forward to really love on the community we live in through it. I really think God is doing something special in Nashville. Apart from the people in TFA, we've met so many people at Midtown that just ended up here, and they can't really tell you why they're here. It's kind of the same with us. We can explain why we're here, but if you told me a year ago that I'd be teaching high school where I'm at now after declining to go to med school... It's a God thing.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

...I will give you rest

*sigh of relief*. Fall break for MNPS has finally arrived. It has been 9 amazingly life-changing, super-long weeks, and now I have an entire week to relax, reflect, and plan ahead (pretty much in that order). We had a work day yesterday which meant that there were no students and I didn't have to be there until 8am. So my break kind of started yesterday.

Well it's been 3 weeks since I last posted, and I would have to say that those weeks have been my toughest to get through. It's hard to think back and remember how I was feeling over that 3 weeks because there are new struggles every day, and my emotions have changed so many times. You're kind of forced to brush off everything from the day before so you can have the strength to take on the next day. A huge part of my struggles these past weeks have been a lack of solid planning for my lessons. The past three weekends I've tried to sit down on the weekend to plan the week's lessons, but I've struggled mustering enough motivation to do it when I just want to relax. So this forces me to be very last-minute, and I'm staying up way too late finishing a powerpoint or I'm scurrying around a drug store an hour before my class starts trying to find glucose test strips for a lab I want to do. All that just adds stress on top of everything else. So either staying up too late and losing sleep or frantically trying to get things together before class in the morning has been the story for the past 3 weeks. Miraculously, I've managed to figure something out each day even if I end up buying the wrong glucose test strips that cost $50 (out of my own pocket) so we just walk through the lab without actually doing it and I tell them what they should have seen. My lessons definitely haven't been ideal, and I've had a couple days where I just taught them how to outline a chapter from the book. This is actually something my assistant principal said she wanted me to do, but it's definitely not what is best for the students in my opinion. I resorted to the outline because I didn't have the materials for what I wanted to do.

Last weekend was actually a little better because I was able to plan for three of the four days we had that week. It wouldn't be as difficult if I only taught one subject, but I have to make twice as many lesson plans for biology and conceptual physics. It's not uncommon for teachers to teach more than one subject though. I was able to get all the materials I needed for this project I wanted to do where my students built an insulator, and the insulator that melted the ice the slowest won. I also made their test, and I got all the worksheets and guided notes together for my biology classes. The last day (Thursday) before fall break was pretty easy because report cards are coming out soon, so a lot of kids are concerned about their grades. So I gave some time for my students to see any assignments they're missing and turn in make-up work.

A week ago I was observed by my program director (PD) for TFA, and the day after I was videotaped to help figure out how I can improve my management skills. My PD observed me during that day we were making an outline from the book. I let her know my planning struggles, and it wasn't too bad. I don't think she thinks I suck too much. I met with her a few days ago to reflect where I'm at and what next steps I should take, and I think we came up with a good plan for what I should do over the break. My goals for the next two weeks are to have a better schedule where I can workout at least 3 times a week, help out with the school bowling team twice a week, and schedule specific tutoring time twice a week right after school. Once I have a better idea of what I'm supposed to teach in my conceptual physics class, I will hopefully be able to plan over the weekend. And I'm working on collaborating with some other people I've found that teach conceptual physics at other schools. I really like our support structure in TFA. I feel like I would just be spinning my wheels if I didn't have someone on the outside to help me reflect and set out small specific goals to improve. The videotaping helped too. I was able to see some things I don't give myself enough credit for and some things I could be doing differently.

Two weeks ago was homecoming week. Everyone could dress up for whatever theme it was that day, but I was so consumed by what I had to get done every day that I didn't think to dress up. There weren't that many teachers that dressed up though, so I didn't stand out. The problem with homecoming week was that the students thought they shouldn't have to do any work that week, and all they did was gripe and complain when they were in my class. All I heard was: "This class is BORING". "I hate this class". "You do too much". "You stay doin too much". "I ain't doin this!" Needless to say, I had a lot of problems with my students that week. To compound that problem though, there have been so many faculty absences at my school that there are substitutes everywhere. And a lot of the time even if the teacher left work for them to do, the students refuse to do it and the sub can't/won't control them. They're leaving the class, roaming the halls, doing whatever they want to do. And there aren't enough principals or security around to make them at least stay in class because the principals have been gone to for various reasons. So substitute teachers and sub principals have not been getting the job done lately, and when the students come into my class they are enraged that they have to behave and do their work. I had to write referrals to the principal for half of one of my classes because they all came into class 15 minutes after their lunch was over. I had to throw out two students in one class because one has ADHD and is off his meds (his mother claims she can't afford them and can't get them through any programs) so he's running around the room blowing this whistle. The other has serious problems with authority and blows up every time I tell her to do something or stop talking.

Someone had the "brilliant" idea to have an hour-long pep rally across the street in the football stadium that Friday of homecoming week. There was apparently rumors of a gang fight that was going to happen around that time. The principal came into my classroom and gave my students a speech to tell them that if you go near a fight, you are implicated and will be thrown out of school until having a court hearing. The students were arguing with her and me about why they shouldn't join in a fight if their cousin (which everyone in the school are cousins of one another) is getting ganged on. It made me think how difficult it is to change these kids mindset they've grown up with. Their parents have told them to stick with their family no matter, which isn't a bad thing of itself. But the student's take it to the point that even if their family is involved in evil things they should still stick with them. And if it involves violence, you get them before they get you. I couldn't convince my students otherwise that day, but fortunately nothing happened at the pep rally. The low level of security that was there with the threat of a gang fight was still appalling to me.

That same week I broke up my first real fight. Two tiny girls almost got in a fight and I was holding them back, but this time two guys broke into a fight down the hall in front of another female TFA teacher who teaches right next to me. Granted the guys were pretty small even for high school freshmen. It was pretty nice to let out some energy and get some adrenaline pumping by yanking them off of each other.

Just last Thursday, my school decided to have another hall sweep where they have all teachers lock their doors when the late bell rings and we're not allowed to let any late students in because they get picked up and put in the cafeteria. Well, another TFA teacher who teaches a bunch of the same students I do overheard some kids yell to one of our students that they're gonna search him. So my TFA friend is suspicious and decides to try to discreetly get someone to his class to search this kid. He was thinking he probably has some drugs or something. First problem, after trying to call/email people in the building it takes like a half hour for someone to come to his room. Meanwhile, my friend is going on with his lesson. Finally, when an officer gets there to search the kid, they find a gun in his backpack. He said he was planning on trading it to a kid for an iPod. And the funny thing is that was probably what this kid was planning to do with it because he is that clueless. Second problem, it's crazy to think that a student had a gun on him all day and no one knew about it until the end of the day. At our meeting yesterday, they kind of addressed the situation and gave us a number we should call or text in that situation.

Well, I am very grateful for the break. We're going to Chicago tonight, and I've got tickets for the Bears game tomorrow. I've always wanted to see a Bears game at Soldier Field, and I'm really excited about the deep dish and the hot dogs.

I don't want to leave out everything that's going on with our church and going through the membership process, but we're about to go have lunch with a couple from our small group. I'll fill in that part later.